Feature in Stylist: how I left my high-stress job to unlock my true potential
“From business director to spiritual healer: how I left my high-stress job to unlock my true potential” Life as a corporate high-flyer was not for me, but somehow I managed it for 10 long years.
It started in 2007 when I arrived in London for what I thought was going to be my dream job. I was hungry, and willing to do anything. Advertising was fun, fast-paced and full of flawless, talented people.
But I was a square peg in a round hole, kidding myself that I belonged and, comparing myself to them, I quickly felt inadequate. I wasn’t half as good as them, I wasn’t qualified or experienced enough. How had I got here? Had they made a mistake hiring me?
Living with constant imposter syndrome and convinced I’d be ‘found out’, I was sure I’d be sacked. I tossed and turned at night, a black cloud of impending doom ever-present in my dreams.
Burned-out and running on empty, I was always the last one in the office. Never feeling like I’d achieved enough to leave on time. Friday night I’d stay for drinks, and blot out all feelings of unworthiness that lingered in the background. Come Sunday I’d feel worse, sob into my pillow and wish the ground would swallow me up.